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Control, attention and self-observation

Self-Monitoring OCD

In self-monitoring OCD, thoughts, feelings, movements and reactions are checked repeatedly. Read about the pattern and its hidden checks.

Typical obsessions and compulsions

Typical obsessions

  • Doubt about whether one appears natural, genuine or coherent
  • Fear of revealing something through one's face, voice or body language
  • Doubt about whether one's thoughts, feelings, motives or reactions are normal
  • Fear of losing control if the monitoring stops

Typical compulsions

  • Monitoring thoughts, feelings, voice, facial expressions and movements
  • Mentally reviewing conversations and reactions
  • Checking other people's faces for signs of how one appeared
  • Comparing with previous reactions or an idea of what is normal
  • Deliberately controlling behaviour, attention or body language

In the middle of a conversation, attention may shift from what the other person is saying to one’s own voice, facial expression or reaction. Did my laugh sound sincere? Did my face look natural? In self-monitoring OCD, such questions become continuous checks. The person tries to ensure that everything seems normal and genuine, but the monitoring makes it harder to participate in what is happening.

What is self-monitoring OCD?

In self-monitoring OCD, attention is used as a recurring check. The person monitors their own thoughts, feelings, actions or bodily signals to detect signs that something is wrong, unnatural or out of control.

In daily life, we may adjust our tone of voice or notice that we are tired. In OCD, attention is given a different task: it must decide whether the voice sounded normal, the thought was harmless or the feeling had the right intensity. An answer may seem certain for a moment and then open the door to another check.

may take place during an activity or afterwards as a . Some people also plan how they should think, look or react before the situation begins. Attention is divided: one part participates while another observes and assesses them from the outside.

What may be monitored?

Monitoring may move between several areas depending on what the person fears discovering.

Thoughts and mental processes. The person notes which thoughts arise, how quickly they come and whether they seem logical. An ordinary association may be scrutinised to determine whether it reveals illness, a lack of control or a hidden intention.

Feelings and motives. Joy, guilt, love, interest and compassion may all be measured. The person examines whether a feeling is strong enough, arises at the right time or fits the situation. If it changes during the checking, that change may be regarded as evidence that something is wrong.

Voice, face and body language. Tone, pauses, eye contact, smiles and hand movements may be closely monitored. The person may try to ensure that their reaction does not seem artificial, threatening, strange or too intense.

Attention and memory. Some people check whether they can follow a conversation, remember information or concentrate on a task. The test takes up some of the attention needed for the conversation or task and may therefore make the person more uncertain.

Bodily signals. Heart rate, tension, dizziness or a particular sensation may be monitored as signs of stress, illness, anxiety or loss of control. Here, the pattern may overlap with sensorimotor OCD or illness OCD, but the focus is often broader than a single bodily process.

When self-observation changes the experience

The checking itself affects what the person is trying to examine. A feeling seems less spontaneous when the person watches for it to arise. A deliberately controlled smile may feel tense, and a concentration test takes attention away from the task one is trying to carry out.

This may be interpreted as evidence: I had to think about the smile, so it was probably false. I lost the thread, so my concentration must be impaired. But the smile may have become less natural and concentration more difficult precisely because the person was monitoring them.

In this way, a small observation becomes a possible warning sign. The person investigates it, the experience changes during the monitoring, and the change prompts another check.

The monitoring does not have to bring clear relief. It may also be used to remain prepared, avoid a mistake or detect a warning sign in time.

Typical obsessions and doubts

Self-monitoring OCD may be linked to many themes. Questions may include:

  • Do I seem natural, or can other people see that I am monitoring myself?
  • Why did I just have that thought?
  • Did I feel enough pleasure, love or compassion?
  • Did my voice sound strange or aggressive?
  • Has my concentration become worse?
  • Could that facial expression reveal something about my true motives?
  • What happens if I stop keeping track of myself?
  • Am I still the same person as before?

The questions may concern social situations, illness, morality, identity or relationships. The subject changes while self-observation continues to be used to look for signs and resolve doubt.

Typical compulsions and safety strategies

The monitoring may be so ingrained that it resembles ordinary attention. Typical responses include:

Continuous internal commentary. The person mentally narrates their actions, thoughts and feelings to avoid overlooking a significant change.

Mental replay. Conversations and actions are reviewed afterwards. Tone of voice, glances and pauses are examined as though a small detail could determine how the person came across.

Deliberate control. The person plans movements, facial expressions or wording and tries to avoid spontaneous reactions. The conversation or movement becomes something that has to be performed correctly rather than something the person simply does.

Feeling and thought tests. A subject, image or memory is evoked to see which thought or feeling appears. The result is compared with previous tests or with an idea of how a normal reaction ought to be.

Reading other people. Faces, answers and body language are used as a mirror. A neutral look may prompt doubt, and a reassuring answer may require a new check of whether the other person really meant it.

Recordings and external evidence. Some look at themselves in mirrors, make audio or video recordings, or save messages so that they can later assess how they appeared.

How self-monitoring may look in daily life

The difference from sensorimotor OCD and social anxiety

In sensorimotor OCD, automatic bodily processes or sensory experiences, such as breathing, swallowing and blinking, remain prominent. The person may fear that they will never be able to shift their attention away from the process again. Self-monitoring OCD is broader. Here, attention may also focus on thoughts, performance, identity, feelings and the overall way the person comes across.

Social anxiety may also involve intense self-consciousness and monitoring in social situations. Here, fear is typically linked to negative evaluation, rejection or humiliation. In self-monitoring OCD, other people’s judgements may matter, but the checking often continues when the person is alone. It may, for example, concern whether a thought was normal, a feeling was genuine or their memory was as good as before. The two patterns may occur together.

When relatives become an additional mirror

Other people may be asked to assess whether the person sounded strange, looked angry or reacted normally. The question may be difficult to recognise as part of OCD because it resembles an ordinary request for feedback. Its function as a check becomes clear through the repetition and demand for precision: Were you completely certain? Did you notice anything, even for a moment? Would you have said so if I seemed different?

Relatives may also be asked to compare the person with how they were previously: Does my voice sound the same? Does my memory seem worse? Do my movements look natural? The answer may bring brief relief, but the next situation reopens the question. The relative’s assessment thereby becomes another check.

Self-monitoring is not self-absorption

A person may appear distant or preoccupied with themselves because a large part of their attention is used to monitor thoughts, feelings, body or behaviour. This is not due to a lack of interest in others. On the contrary, the person may be monitoring themselves precisely to ensure that they respond correctly in the conversation or relationship.

Frequently asked questions about self-monitoring OCD

Ordinary self-awareness, mental checks and related OCD patterns.

Isn't it normal to pay attention to yourself?

Yes. We use self-observation to adjust our behaviour and understand our reactions. In OCD, however, the observation must settle the question with certainty. The person therefore returns to the same check, compares it with previous reactions and looks for exceptions even after finding a reasonable answer.

Why do I feel less natural when I try to check whether I am natural?

Because some of your attention shifts from the situation to the monitoring. When you monitor your voice, plan a smile or test a feeling, what normally happens by itself may begin to feel tense. The change may later be interpreted as a sign that you actually sounded or appeared unnatural, even though the monitoring helped create the experience.

Can self-monitoring be a mental compulsion?

Yes. Self-monitoring functions as a mental compulsion when it is used repeatedly to detect warning signs, resolve doubt or gain certainty. The person may sit completely still while monitoring thoughts, measuring feelings, commenting on their reactions or replaying a conversation. Thinking and analysis then acquire the same controlling function as a visible check.

Is self-monitoring OCD the same as sensorimotor OCD?

No. Sensorimotor OCD typically concerns attention becoming fixed on automatic bodily processes or sensory experiences. Self-monitoring may include the body, but also thoughts, feelings, motives, memory, voice and social behaviour. The patterns may overlap if a bodily observation is examined to determine what it might reveal about illness, personality or loss of control.

How does self-monitoring differ from ordinary reflection?

Ordinary reflection often leads to a useful conclusion or adjustment. In compulsive review, a plausible explanation is not enough. New details and possible exceptions reopen the question because the person is looking for definitive proof.

Can self-monitoring move between different areas?

Yes. For a time, attention may focus on the voice and later on feelings, thoughts or memory. It is often the same checking strategy with a new subject: the person is still trying to detect signs, resolve doubt and ensure that nothing important is overlooked.